Hi all! Hannibal here,
It has been a long time since I wrote anything in this blog. Actually, I cannot remember the last time I actually posted something of value. I wouldn’t like to be of those that suddenly disappear and doesn’t say a word so here I am!
It has been almost three years of living in a foreign country (Ireland). I really enjoyed the time I was here, but I’m finally coming back to Spain in order to improve my life and having a big change. The experience in that country has been awesome and I will miss every single moment; it’s always hard to leave behind all those things you have enjoyed for a long time. I always enjoyed mapping and since I first left Spain on 2011 because the Erasmus, I tried hard not to lose contact and keep mapping. Apart from the parties, football, trips,etc. one of those good experiences I had in Ireland was mapping in CS: it has been always something I really enjoyed no matter how far I was from my home.
The first year in Ireland I spent a lot of time playing CS:S (ZM/ZE), following the status of my current maps and designing or imagining how LMS would be. I didn’t have too much time on the first months, so the only I could while I was walking through the streets and when resting at home was thinking about how LMS would be by drawing, writing notes and imagining in my head how the scenes would be: I spent hours and nights about thinking in the scenes and gameplay at the same time I was playing music in my head; everyday while returning from work I was thinking in the story while listening music with the headphones; I probably wrote more than 20 pages of ideas and etc,… After a year, I started getting crazy: progress was slow and I had a ton of things to do. I couldn’t finish it without help, so I asked for Kaemon (you cannot believe how hard I tried! I wrote a kind of contract to pay him for the help and you wouldn’t believe the quantity I offered). To be honest, not even with him was possible to make what I was thinking; I needed a whole team, but, at the same time, I wanted to be the only author of my last map. It was extremely hard to fit mapping in the Irish lifestyle: after 8h of being in an office, I was too tired to stay another 4h (as I used in the past) mapping, so sometimes I just mapped 3h or 4h per week which made the process extremely slow. I was getting on my nerves because it was the first time ever I was working and I saw I couldn’t have time for my hobby.
Time passed and after months and years CS:S was bleeding out. CS:GO was growing up and players were leaving CS:S, and especially the ZE. I have seen servers of 50 slots where I couldn’t join because it was full be with barely 6 or 7 ppl (sometimes empty). Even though, I wanted to release this map; I didn’t care of the quantity of players. I can remember telling Kaemon: “I don’t care if the map fails, I just want to finish it because it’s my dream map”. At the 2nd year I actually was getting annoyed with the map. I couldn’t see the end of it. I touched all limits many times including the round time in ALL the stages. It was too much for a single person. Source SDK was not enough for creating this kind of map (Source SDK it’s like an editor of 10 years ago or more). Every single time I wasn’t mapping I was thinking: “I have to finish the map… I cannot believe I cannot finish it… it was supposed to be my hobby”. It went extreme and some days I wanted so hard to see a feature completed I didn’t sleep until 6am (I remember saying ‘Good morning’ to Kaemon sometimes in Skype). In the end of the development, I was really tired. I enjoyed it, but it was getting actually harmful for my health and my mind. I had enough to worry about in my job so all this together was mind blowing.
And then I had the map completed, but there was the last part of it: testing, fixing bugs,… In the end, I finally could see if people would accept it or not. I tried luck with changing completely the way a ZE map needed to be played, and I thought that would be innovative, but I was wrong. In the end, the map wasn’t as I expected: the size was too big, the detail was to low (because the limits), the gameplay wasn’t as I wanted (some kind of maps simply doesn’t work online), etc… I spent an additional three months fixing and testing but it wasn’t enough. I could improve the gameplay but I finally gave up. I crossed the line and it turned out that mapping wasn’t fun for me anymore. I didn’t want to know about the map anymore. When I made a stable version, I felt the thing finished, not as I wanted, but it finished so I was happy with it. From that point, I felt free again so I stopped mapping. I have to admit that not only mapping but playing ZE wasn’t as fun as it was before : ( (I never thought I would say that!).
Working in IT (computer software development) and mapping it’s a bad combination since your can spent probably 14+ h per day, from Monday to Friday in front of a screen, and that’s, obviously, not good for you.
Because all this, I decided quitting mapping in Counter Strike with no return point. I don’t want to say the word, but I have to: I’m done with Counter Strike mapping forever!
So, thank you all. For the ones who are still playing and those who are not, and for those who have been visiting the blog. Thanks for playing my maps and Counter Strike Zombie Mod in general. Those years have been amazing and unforgettable (at least the ones before LMS!). Thanks for the great support, hours of testing, donations, comments, videos, etc… I will miss all the community, mappers, admins and players. That was a part of my life I will never forget.
Just a bit of nostalgia. I can remember the day I placed a block in the Hammer editor and saved the file as Mines_Of_Moria.vmf, probably eight years ago; I can remember the day we first played it, which was basically the first map I saw to be extended up to 5 times, then the people forced a vote to change the map, and vote it back again; the funny stair scene and the Gandalf sacrifices; the games we had in Mount Doom, with the ring bearer screwing the game or the last run being so intense; I can remember the epic escapes in Helms Deep where 8 humans needed to run through 40 zombies; I can remember those games in Paranoid, were twenty people with items like a car, a flying cat or a turtle thrower fight against the Balrog, the Gargantua (or Titan) and the Pyramid head while everything was flying away; I remember the many tempests we had in Mako reactor Extreme mode end (probably, one of the most epic moments I have had playing CS:S), and how the people sent me hundreds of demos and videos for the contests; and finally, the huge plays and epic wins of Minas Tirith, with Gandalf lighting the black room or the White Knight facing the Balrog while the meteors… Obviously, I cannot forget all this, and again, I thank all you are reading this and the ones who will not. For making me so happy : )
And, I have to specially thank Kaemon for all the support, games, jokes, tests, map helps, skype calls, critics, opinions, keeping the blog alive by writing amazing posts… Without of him, I wouldn’t have continued mapping the way I did. Kaemon is one of the bests persons I have met and I won’t lose contact with him after this : ) Without him, I could probably have stopped with Helms Deep. So thanks my friend, for all these years. I never laugh that much playing/testing in CS:S
Special mentions also for the next people:
- Lourdes, my girlfriend, for all these years supporting me! I had hard times with LMS but she always encouraged me.
- Maese Danielot, for giving me good ideas and being the director and indirect maker of Mako Reactor map (I followed his guidelines for the creation of that map)
- Metro, for being so close the lasts times and helping me on testing. Also for encouraging me!
- Zacade, for your awesome support and help in many cases, thanks!
- Lunatxz, for helping me on map testing and being so good admin. The savior of Paranoid map (map not compiling and helped spotting the issue; he spent and uploaded probably more than 80 versions)
- Kaesar, for giving me such good animations for LMS!
- Zan, for being so good and being a good supported, thanks mate.
- Luffaren, for being such a good mapper, I learnt things from you : )
- Cmer, when the golden age of ZE, the admin who ruled Supreme Elite, he was always available for updating/changing the map to one of mines at any moment! Thanks!
- Salem, for being an awesome master admin of the early years of i3D. You uploaded Mines of Moria, my first map ever, and you also were good to me : )
- Freeze, for doing such good maps and be so good person. One of the bests moments of ZE.
- Serious Samurai, for being so good player and mapper, I envy you and your Helms Deep at L4D!
- Tony Montana, you are an awesome admin and player. When spectating, me and Danielot were always watching you, what a show!
- Riperzz, so nice supporter, I can remember how good times we had in Steam Gamers.
- Unreal, thanks for testing so many of my maps and telling me the issues, great supporter!
- Patrao, very good admin, player and tester. I really enjoyed your help : )
- S-Low, thank for providing me the Nazgul model! I also grabbed many other models from your posts, you are one of the reasons we can see many models in CS:S
- Punisher, I never saw a guy playing like you in my maps, was impressive! Good supporter.
- Masak not Soldier, great player and supported, reported a good number of issues also.
- Sandfly, no words for this lovely admin, he left CS:S a long time ago, one of the nicests persons I have seen in the games.
- Eastsider and Westsider: awesome skilled players, the most of the times I joined I could see one of you playing.
- Maverick, Aksarak, Jester, Ventura, Crispis, Killerspain, Sephiroth, Kado: before mapping I was a CS:S player, we always played together using Teamspeak; one of the funniest years of my life.
I want also thank all the communities for supporting me, releasing my maps and giving me back feedback. The most of them are probably gone, but they will be always and forever, part of the CS:S ZM/ZE history.
- Supreme Elite
- Syndicate Gamers
Im sure there are many other players to thank and communities for never forgetting. To be honest, I had a list of all the people I wanted to thank (+100 names) if that day would come, but it’s on a HDD far away from where I’m, indeed, I wanted to make a summary video and include that list, but I’m afraid this will not happen. I’m sorry for those I missed. I may have forgotten the name, but will never forgot their remembers : )
So, what’s next? I’m growing/getting older, but that doesn’t mean I had lost the taste for videogames. In fact, to be honest, I cannot wait for coming back to Spain a build a good game station for playing Killing Floor 2 and Grand Theft Auto V and keep playing as always. I also play CS:GO so I will give ZE/ZM a chance also.
I suppose Kaemon has it’s on plans, but I’m no one to tell them. I will keep in contact with him, and who knows what happens in the future : )
About Last Man Standing, I’m giving away all the Source files. If a good mapper wants to “resurrect” or “save” this map, please, let me know and send me an email to email@example.com. If I get no notice, I will probably release everything (post it probably in Gamebanana) and let ayone to get anything from that map, or make any version, under WTFPL license (do what the fuck you want to public). I had plans to port it to CS:GO or make ZM maps from that map (there are 5 stages, and you can basically extract up to 4 zm maps from each one…)
Again, thank you all for everything! Never forget.
Thanks, you can always find me in Steam. The show must go on!
Rafuron, Hannibal [SPA]